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Which character from any film, television show, or book would you most like to take on a date and why? Submitted By |
When i saw this question i so wanted to answer it but was too buisy , as always lately ;)
But well luckily there is an archive
Dr. Spencer Reid :)
Why? cuz he is very intelligent good looking, sweet :) what more can u ask for?
And he could help me with all my stupid little math questions....when my stupid tutor just says...." well...i don´t know how to calculate this...i just see it...!"...???? wtf? yeah with such an easy function i see it too...but what do u do when u can´t " see" it anymore???
and u want to me a math teacher one day? Poor kids.
As allways not much time, i´m invited to a halloween party tonight *squee*
10 more minutes to get readdy....or i´ll be late.
ok i´ll probably be late ^^
But that doesn´t matter cuz i will meet with B first and she is just as "verpeilt ;) " as i am anyways.
First time we wanted to go out saturday night ( we hardly knew each other back then ) i was about an hour late and while driving to her house i was thinking if it was to bold to ask her to stop at the mall on our way down town cuz shops are all closed on sundays and i had no food....
Well when i arrived at her house she looked at me .." ....is it to bold if i ask u to stop at the mall for a sec? i desperatly need some food for tomorrow......"
I love that girl ;)
So much for now...have a great weekend everybody
Happy Halloween ;) !!!!
Camping in the woods, definitly !!!!!
Because it is a lot more fun.
U feel free
Ah im not good with explanations today...
but this is me :
What breed of horse are you? Find out!
explaines everything, doesen´t it ??? ;)
This unreal time of the day, the night, im awake, as always cuz this is my time, the darkness, the silence the lonelieness....i can hide, become one with the creatures of the night...
i dreamt of monsters, but they where good.Helped me to overcome a loss, offerd me a contract to become one of them after i passed a test...three questions from a dark wooden box, the last one in hushed whispers so that i hardly got it....but succeeded.
The days bright sunlight makes me euphoric, hyperactive, nervous, happy.....the night brings me down .
Have u smelled the summer tonight?
I have to get up when the sun comes up,
there is nothing like dawn on an almost spring day smelling alreaddy like summer.
the stars vanish as the sky trades its dark midnight navy for the light lazurite color which turns our oceans blue.
a sand lagune, surrounded by high darkbrown sharp-edged rocks, this is where i had to stay.A bright place, small but with lots of sunshine and bright yellow sand.
when the time was up i wanted to take a shower.
Was sent to an attic where the shower cabines where so small that one had to huddle up to fit in.
Someone told me the code for the shower of the monsters, i tryed but had forgotten it alreaddy...
was watched by a monster, which offered me the test after i failed the shower code.
I had 60 days to sign the contract.
Somehow i knew that i was not allowed to show it to anyone, was hiding it from my family which picked me up.
We had a donkey for our luggage on the way down the hill.
One could not take a photo of the mountain, there always appeared a tree whenever i tryed.
Magical mountains are not to be photographed.
Good Night
Happy Birthday
Rest in Peace
I hope that they find a way to cure spinal injuries.
So that people who are paralyzed now can move there body again.
It is often only one little damage in the vertebral that causes an interruption of the information flow from the brain to parts of the body.
I really hope ( and i am quite confident ) that they will be able to create a little computer chip or somehting that can overcome this blockade so that the information can be transported for the brain to any part of the body again.
I also hope that they will create a personal cure for depressions. A personal because depressions don´t always have the same reason.
They found out that there are several gene mutations that can cause depressions.
Though partially possible they dont use this technique today just because this knowlege is very new.
But i hope ( and again i am confident ) that one day they can find out which mutated gene causes ur personal depression and give u ur personal medicine to block that particular gene...
Do you think Heath Ledger deserves the Oscar for his role in the Dark Knight? Submitted By |
most definitly.
How can u even ask?
He should get the oscar, even so i would probably burst into tears when watching the show...
There is no doubt about it, he deserves the oscar!!!!
but now it stoped.
The daylight is alreaddy coming back dispelling the black darkness, steeling the stars, making them invisible for us.
Not long from now the sun will rise but the sky is overcast.Heavy grey clouds...only very few spots of blue sky.
For me blue sky is beautyful, it stands for life and happieness, and this grey rainy clouds are somwhow depressing, creating a sad melancholy mood.
But i just talked to a girl...
she said she hates the blue sky, its like an evil smirking moster making fun of her with its blue happieness.
For her rain is life.
It cools down the unbearable heat of the day, quenching the thirst of man and beast, turning the browen seared meadows into a green paradise.
It is the same over here of coures...but there is so much rain we are not appreciative about it anymore...
For us a raindrop is at most annoying but nothing special.
The lifes in the desert...
For her it is a diamond
came home very early...11.45 pm...last bus.
Had to take it cause i don´t have a car anymore and tomorrow i got to go somewhere.
I hate having walls around me so i left again about 12.15...
went for a walk.It was warm, even though the sun was long gone.Ok maybe it was not warm but at least it was not freezing anymore and for me it was warm. Embraced by the darkness of the night without anybody around.It was windy and soon started to rain.Sombody hat one of this things that play random melodys in the wind hanging on their balcony.
I passed by an old oak tree that kept all of its leaves.They are brown and dead but it seems like non of them would have fallen down during fall and winter.Rustling gently in the wind like a slight wisper telling storys of times long gone.When the people brought their pigs to this meadows to feed them with grass and the acorns in autumn.
I finaly knew it was spring.
All the buds bursting into life and the rain it smelled like summer.
As if the ground was seared by weeks of pure summer heat and sunshine it was lusting for water.
I danced in the rain.Guess i should never meet anyone during those walks, they would call me crazy.
I saw somebody behind a window and started running.
I´m afraid of people during this walks.
This is my time to welcome spring with its rain the night and the wind playing with my hair.
U gotta have ur hair down when it is windy.
When i was younger i was watching the grey sky through my bathroom window whenever i was upset and begged the wind to take me along...
Actually i have to admit that i still do
I can hear the raindrops on my window
it is the best soundtrack for leading u into dreamland.
good night
i´m wearing three pullovers two pair of trousers a scarf and such a blanket poncho mixture thing and still i´m freezing....
Happy Easter....;)
Yesterday i was dancing with the snowflakes
Winter is so beautyfull...im not even mad when it got cold and started snowing again, although i love spring, the flowers the warm sun, a wounderfull smell and the sound of one thousand birds filling the air.
But winter
there is nothing so peacefull like snow.
U can walk along the loudest street, the snow absorbes every sound and leaves u to the most peacefull silence u could ever imagine.
Wolrd turnes into a fairytale country when its covered with that white fragile frozen flowers.
I once made a calender for a friend...wrote a little poem...more just a line for every month
the january line would work right now:
January ur so cold
u have a beauty hart to hold
snowflakes dancing withing pale light
frezzing in the dark clear night
maybe the february line:
February winters child
year´s so young
so cold and wild
but the one i did for march....
March ur springs first
natures youth and her rebirth
...it worked for the first two weeks.....
now winter came back killing all of springs beautyfull children
( springs children )
( See more beautyfull pics;)...<333 )
Got a lot more pics i made this year ( got a digital camera for christmas...;-) ) some of the sunset by the lake and others i made today...its rainig but i love to be outdoors.
Its so warm that i rather feel like beeing somewhere in a "rainforrest" than here where it actually should be cold and snowy....
I´ll go to a concert later today, a hardcore band actually but tonight they´ll play an acoustic show.
It´s gonna be interesting i think :)
maybe one day i´ll learn to sleep when normal people do.
The night is the perfect time for meeting ur deamons.
There is this girl...i don´t know her.
We went to the same elementary school.
Or no...maybe she wasn´t at the same school, she probably went to the school for disabeled students.
We only met on our way home....only once.
Its about 13 years ago.I saw some other kids hunting her.
They said they wouldn´t leave her until she was at home.
So she went up the stairs to a house, but even i, walking on the other side of the street, could tell she was not living there...
She said she could not go in because her parents where not at home.
Thats all i remember, i just passed by.
I could have said that she was a freind of mine, could have told them to leave her alone..but i didn´t...
Hadn´t had any courage at that time, and i can only hope that i have more today.
Cause i can´t stand our society for just looking away, only taking care of their own buissnes, not helping the ones who are not able to denfent themselfs.
I don´t want to be one of them, but back then i was.
She went to the same church i did.
I saw her every sunday, she was alone most of the time, only sometimes her younger brother joined her.He is diabled to.
I´m sure she had very less money but she always gave something to the collecte
Never saw her with any adults...i thing she didn´t live with her parents.
About a year ago i met her again. ( when i write "met" i only mean that i saw her...we never talked, i know nothing about her....)
A friend of mine was living in the worsed house of the city.He came here to study, didn´t found a flat and so he had to move in there, cause u´ll always get a flat ther for nobody would really want to live there....
The house got about 15 floors..maybe more.He lived on the ninth floor.
It always smelled like weet and pie in the elevator, sometimes there was blood on the floor, it was dirty and in summer the people where sitting in front of the house sometimes with their cocain shots lying next to them....there where kids running around i was always afraid that one of them might fall into one of that used shots.....
I could probably tell one hundred storys about that house....the one time we steped out of the elevator and went right back in when seeing that big fat naked guy who was gladly probably as surprised as we where.
Or about the night we spent there with wiskey ( not for me....) and guitars....wiskey and smoke can create a wounderful voice for singing....maybe not the healthiest one but i love the sound...we sat on the floor just singing and playing guitar till the sun came up...only that but still i would say it was one of the best nights of my life....
The girl lives in that house, i saw her there.
All of this only came to my mind because i saw her brother tonight hanging around at the gasstation.
He was the ghost of my night, reminding me of one of my deamons....
Good morning world :)
not that i would mind....not at all.I love my moblie phone...but its broken.one key is missing and sometimes i can push any key i want, nothing will happen....
therefor that the brand does not exist anymore, it will be hard to get any spare parts...
The contract is runnig out so they´ll give me a new phone when i extend it.
But which one should i take?
All that new stuff they incorporate like digital cameras mp3 player.. whatever...i don´t care about cause i´ll only use it for is calling people, writing short massages, reciving calls and massages...
Normaly i´m well aware of product placement and i think it got only little influence on me...
but this time it had.
I´ve chosen the one most of the people on csi have..the bones guy also got one of the same brand.
won´t tell u which one, cause i don´t want my journal to be a place for prodact placement...if ur dying to know just have a closer look at the cell phones on csi...^^
I got some money from my uncle....but i won´t really get it, cause my dad is so broke that we have to take this money split it up and give it back to my uncels son´s for if he gives something to me we have to give something to his kids to...
I think it suchs....not because of not getting the money, and don´t really care about that, but i will have to say thankyou to my uncle and my gradnma will always tell me how great it is that my uncle gave it to me.that i should spent it on usefull things and how thankfull i have to be for reciving it....but i don´t....
and i´d rather prefer not to get anything at all, than to get something i will never have but still have to be thankfull for....
its time to change now...only one more hour then i´ll have to work again.
hopefully there will be a lot to do. i don´t what to have time to think tonight, cause it would only lead to bad thoughts...
hope u´ll have a great weekend
wherever i go i know thousands of wappons are pointed at me...
all i can do is hoping that there are no bullets inside...this time.
I can only pray that all the bullets are going to miss me this year...i can only hope and pray...
"Sitting in this room playing russian roulette,
figure on the trigger to my dear juliet...."
Does anyone of u konw "A Life Once Lost" ?
After listening to James Blunt all day long i really feel like i need someone to scream into my ears again.
Its so refreshig:)
I feel wired somehow...not really..i mean its just that i´m at that point again where i feel like people can not deal with me the way i am.
I would have to change everything i am to fit in.
But that is not what i want.I don´t know who i am but i know that i don´t want to be any different.
Know its a corny line...
"I´d rather be hated for what i am, than loved for what i´m not "
but its so true..
Somehow i´m fighting with the hole wide world again...at least in me head...
i just can´t accept things like they are...
its just not how i want the world i live in to be.
The only thing i can change is me...but for i don´t want to it seems to be a catch 22 situation....
maybe i should go to sleep....
the world might seem to be much friendlier tomorrow....
its just i feel so lost and lonely and don´t even know why.
I can be surrounded by one hundred people and still feel lonely.
Was out yesterday..the club i´m mostly every weekend, i will go there today too after finishing this entry.
Four of my best friends where there, we where dancing laughing.....but still i felt like beeing the only person in the world.
I want something to hurt me...i need physical pain....but no ...no no no.....no this is not gonna help me.my brain knows but my soul does not...
i want to breath but feel like there is not enough air left for me...
it´ll be alright tomorrw i know...maybe monday, but it will be alright again..just a little hole on my way to sunshine.
Oh the gingery cookies....i´m a little afraid of going to that club tonight...some entrys ago i told u about that guy the one who gave me his number...telling me he´s gona miss me and stuff like that....
actually i would have expected him to be mad at me and to ask me why i did not call.....but what does he do????
He brough me a christmas present...a nice box with gingery cookies....
Why????
I don´t want this..i don´t want to see him again....it scares me..
i had a discussion about different mentalities with my best friend lately....
we are keeping our distance...something she does not like...but i somehow love....ok i hate it on the other way, but i always love what i hate and hate what i love...thats a different story...
anyways....he´s from africa the people there are a lot more open and connect so much faster than over here.
I can´t stand that...
I need my distance i need the wall around me i need my space, my freedom!!!!
Ok i might be a special case anyways because of having an emotional instable personality.......
i don´t know...maybe i shoud tell him to leave me alone...
i´m so bad at that...there might be no other way...
ok its pretty late i should go, otherwhys the club will be closed when i arrive..^^
Today i cleaned up their cage.....guess what i found...
suddenly i had six mice...*lol* maybe even more...was so surprised that i could not realy count them...just put the house back and left them to not disturbe or trouble them.
I easily feel overextended with something like that ^^
was the same when i bought one guinea pig and ended um with four *lol*
i have to be careful now...otherwise i´ll end up with thousands of mice...ah i have one male mouse right now and maybe some more later which i have to give away....
anyone of u interestet in some mice?
i´m already surching for someone to take the male ones on a special board...i just hope they don´t end up as food for some snakes...
They are so cute my sweet little micelys....but i don´t want my decision to end up in a plague...hope i´ll find a way that i can keep two or three females and give away the males...
its a pretty hopeless wish cause no one wants male mice and i can´t affort to neuter them so....we´ll see what tomorow brings....can´t chance anything anymore...so...it doesn´t make sense to worry about this all the time right now.
hope u had a good time last night.
i had.Just came home from work...
eight hours without a break,i´m sooo tired
so its gonna be a short one this time.
Time lapsed quikly for there was enought to do.
So many different people...confused ones, in a hurry, or up to tell u there hole life, sad ones, peolpe smiling all the time, persisted ones...one guy would not go away unless i danced with him...was funny for a while but hopefully not to annoying for the other guests for he was asking each and everyone of them to stand in for me, so that i should dance with him....
the most conspicuous person was, without a doubt, the guy with the vampire teeth...;)quite nice and pleasant...we had a discussion about death^^
could tell u a lot more storys about tonight but my eyes refuses to stay open any longer^^
all i want to do right now is sleeeeeeeping, and dreaming of going to america ( im loning to go there again right now.....missing it sooo much )
Hope u all will have a succesful, good, healthy, blessed and of course happy new year of 2008 !!!!
Was iceskating...that was fun..but now i´m just sitting here in my room...hate this walls around me.
Everybody went home for christmas and they won´t be back till 2008...was invited to go on a trip to turkey with some friends but don´t have the money....so i´m going to work tomorrw, best payed day of the year :)
I´m really glad i can work cause my ex boyfriend who actually lifes in another city ( he only studies here...) and got nearly all of his friends and his girlfriend in that other city, decided that it would be a good idea to bring all of his friends to this city( it more than 100km......)to celebrate new years eve...
Oh yeah.....we really have the "best" new years eve partys going on here.....*lol*
Luckily i work at a party for people over 30...
Pray for me that they do not came up with the idea it might be funny to go to such a party cause i really really really do not want to see him with his girlfriend...especially not somewhere i´m not able to esacpe.I work there so i have to stay....no matter what...
Oh by the way...i love iceskating :)
Ok there where so many people it was more likely a trining on how to swerve....^^
but maybe it´ll be cold enough this year again that the lake might freeze so that we can go iceskating there...space !!!!!! :)
We got a winter this year again.love it.i love all kind of wintersports....ice skating, skiing and epecially snowboarding..hopefully there will be enough snow this year that i can do that couple times.....
Maybe i should go to the fitness center....it´s probably as boring as sitting here...but at least i would not stare at my walls anymore...
have i mentioned i can´t stand them?
instead of i´ll have to stare at some stupid rednecks who think it would look good if they have so much muscles that they are not able to get thier arms down....
ok i´m pretty intolerant right now...apologize for that...there might be people who like that, even girls...but i definitly don´t.
I like my guys thin....tall and thin...not gangling...don´t like that..gawky is bad too...
just in good shape ,its nice if u can feel some muscles...but plaese not too much...
maybe i´m to fastidious ...
its a dream anyways...
so....have a nice day, evening....rest of the year...wahtever ;)
Hold on world, please hold on.....ur way to fast for me....
just few entrys ago i wrote about the same topic...now chirstmas is over....i afraid i might wake up tomorrow beeing 80 years old not having achieved anything in my life.
If there is one thing im realy bad at then its managing my time.
Probably this is because i think to much, some kind of family disease....
Hello brain...couldn´t u just stop thinking?Or no...wait...no i don´t want to be one of this brainless dolls just consuming, beeing lost without a leader whom they could follow unconditionally.
If that musing is the price i have to pay for being an independent individual i have to disburse it...
Haven´t found a way jet to deal with that roller coaster in my head, but hopefully i will....soon.
Oh i really love livejournal....but hate my laptop....
its always shutting down the pages telling me the program does not react anymore...but thanks to lifejournal that saves the entries even if u have not pushed the submit button jet i´m still able to post my words:)
but its to late now to go on for i want to go ice skating later.hope u excuse me...good night..or good morning?
It´s just because of that new show, men in trees which probably is going to be on tv next week...somehow i just love the title^^...so i had to use it for what i saw tonight on my way home...ok it was a car not men and actually it was not really IN a tree more on a slope.There was a tree growing befor the car hit it, but then it was squeezed between the car and the slope.So it looked like it was haniging in the tree while actually leaning against the slope vertical.
Clear starlit night, snow on the fields...so u might expect the road to be in an icy condition...
I wonder how fast he must have been...driving threw that curve with the allowed speed i had no problems at all...so how fast do u have to be to end up like that?
By the way no one was harmed in that acciedent.I asked the guy who probably drove the car weather i could help him...call the ambulance, the police or something.He answered that everything would be alright and that the police was alreaddy informed.So don´t worry.
Christmas is finaly over.
I love christmas, but as much as i love it, i also hate it.
Its famliy time.We are no family, we´ve never been one, just pretending on christmas.That is not what makes me sad, not at all.It´s actually the reason why i love christmas, cause chrsitmas is hope...for me the hope that there still is some kind of bond between us as a family.But pretending is not easy, so there always is a fight, and always somebody is hurt, mostly someboby not even involved in that fight.I don´t want the people i love to be sad, but don´t no how to fix their broken hearts.Feeling guilty cause i´m the one beeing responsible for this hole "pretending to be a family" thing. I´m the child...so i´m the bond between two familys which would not be involved without me.
This year it was my grandma who got hurt.Not only on one day, but all three christmas days went wrong for her this year.She is an old lady, no one knows how often she will be able to celebrate christmas again. So i want her to have a beautyful time with her family.But it all went wrong this year.Especially on Boxing day...she was so lost and helpless about seeing us as a family not beeing able to get along.
We are all difficult characters, not easy to deal with...but in a wired kind of way i´m sure we all love each other...or at least i love each and everyone of them.
I just want to hug my gradnma, telling her everything is alright, i want her to smile..i want her heart to smile.but sadly it´s not that easy.....
Was in church tonight
And again i felt that i really belive in god, but don´t konw about jesus....
it´s wired celebrating his birthday not knowing what i really think about him...
Few years ago i´ve been to this event "jesus house".
Five days with different topics about jesus, storys of people telling how they found jesus ( oh by the way...there is a funny quote a friend once told me..."I finaly found jesus...he was behind the sofa all the time..." don´t know why but i like it :-) ).
Actually this event should help u to refasten ur belif in jesus, but had the opposite effect on me.
Since then i can´t go to church without questioning everything told about jesus.
There is so much about him not making any sense to me.
This realy brings me into trouble once in a while cause i don´t know what to do.
Never questioned my religion...now i do somehow.
I belive in God, for that i´m sure.
We got the bible which would be old and new testament...but we are hardly refering to the old one, so its just all about jesus.God is often only mentioned as his father..but nothing else...
Don´t now what i´m going to do about me an jesus
guess it might take a few more years for me to think about it.
For right now i keep on celebrating his birthday,hoping he does not mind ;-)
Nevertheless
may god bless u all
Merry Christmas !!!!
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